20thnovember is a big day for ianoski rook and YANOSKY YOOK (hehex his new nickname for me hmph). his final ippt and my final judging. both of us need to pass these tests and we really can settle for a pass. good luck ianoski and yanosky! :D

so ian had a down day today and i felt like i needed to cheer him up and at least enjoy his last few weeks of bmt. i had an amazing day with my friends and irah and i couldnt stop smiling just listening to her talk abt ian and hammad :) got home and ian told me he didnt really have a good day, so i decided to tell him what we talked about :)

firstly, i call suffian abang, and i'm not ashamed of it. because when we first got to know each other, he really was like a big brother i never had. we talked about every single thing. past bgr problems, family problems, and what colour suits my skin tone. no really, he's amazing that way. so i told ian how i couldnt stop tearing while thinking about him. no i wasnt sad at all. those tears are tears of comfort and knowing that there's someone in this world who loves me like crazy the way he does and will really go all out just for me. talk to me and accompany me every night no matter how tired he was. and how he accepts me the way i am, thats most important to me.

actually there's more to that conversation but i think imma stop here :) but i am incredibly happy i made ian smile today. he interrupted me while talking and told me to shh. i thought.. yanni im trying to tell you what i think abt you tau. but siiiiiiiiiiiiigh his response was...... siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.. i'm still smiling, still flying, still fluttering.

i love you ABANG shuffian ;D

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

i absolutely love this week! i felt non-stop love and affection from my family, friends and of course my dear fian. (because famil and friends start with the letter f whaaaaat). anyways since i've blogged since weds, i shall continue from there.

thurs morning wasnt so good for me, honestly. i woke up feeling mighty shitty. didnt wanna go to schl. wore the first thing i saw, and thank god it was presentable. skipped 9am lect and thank god mummy sent me to schl. otherwise i wouldve been incredibly late. netsec tutorial, horrible. i refused to concentrate. was sulking all the way. intentionally forgot to bring netsec lect notes so i couldnt do the review qstns and i didnt even make the slightest attempt to try. i have no idea whats wrong :( slowly, i started smiling more, laughing more, and at 230pm, ianoski msged me. and that really made my day. and thank you nawal my love, for being there for me. for hugging me and for being like a big sister to me. i couldnt have gone thru thurs without you and your warm huggs and kisses. i owe so much to you and i am thankful to have you as my friend, my classmate, my project mate, my shoulder to cry on, my listening ear, everything! i love you so damn much.

so thurs ended on a pretty good note. ian called as usual, made me laugh and forgot abt my shitty morning.

fridaaaaaaaay! went to schl for mcom wtf i hate going to schl on friday. and i had to do that mp survey thingy. and this hammad aaaaah.. i was gonna queue up to take the survey and he walked out. i asked him 'so hows the quiz?'. i forgot the word, and said quiz instead of survey. he said 'susah ah.. i hope you studied'. i was so shocked :O :O :O i didnt study xna at alllll! naseb ada nawal, she told me he's just joking grrz. had macs lunch with nawalawa and girl talk started from there. stretched alllllllll the way till abt 6 ish? initial plan was to catch love happens but we.. okay fine yana pandaipandai say confirm have. so we went to cs, no love happens. tamp, no love happens. EHUB NO LOVE HAPPENS. naseb nawalawa still love me. so takpe ,we continued taaaaalking and talking. was too early to fetch ianoski so i took a bus ride to airport. abeh otw back to tamp, ian said he otw home. yana paniiiiiiiiic. and the smelly sleeping ahpek beside me didnt help at all :( met ian at pasir ris in the end. accompanied him home to salin baju and we had cheese fries at smp ooh lazat and teh-o so damn makcik pakcik kan. skipskipskip the part where i got srsly sick :( two nights sey vomit vomit. but thank god i feel so much better nw.

and todaaaaaaaaaay! actually nak visit shashad baby, but uncle ianoski sick ah. kesian shashad. so we went to kallang to buy 2 tickets to paranormal activity. killed time at town and surprised irah and fina tapi fina takdeeee. DIA PERGI ICE CREAM AFFAIR LAAAAAAAAAH. walked ard more, went to orchard central amboooooooooi seram lah go up the escalator and amboooooi rooftop lawa sey! but i'm not gonna be some lame ass and say that place is 'somewhere only we know'. heck, you dont own that waterfall place and everyone knows abt it dont step somewhere only we know lah. so then went back to kallang for zingner (hurhur ianoski) and watched paranormal. sho shcary and ian so rilek sey. padehal his heart beating quite fast kekekeke shhhhh.. lepaked at kallang macs, camwhored like nobody's business and then went home and went out again for lepak session w my relatives. AND WE SAW NENEK KEROPOK. dunno real one or not but she like.. so suspensi gitu.

mm long post. bottom line, i love my family, friends and fiaaaaaaaan. fian kalau salah spell macam fina tapi sayang fina jugak so its okaaaaaaaay :D

no pictures because its in my handphone and i lazy lah want to transfer so some other time lah when i tak lazy :)

amazing 3 days started on monday. went to irshad's place in the morning first and then to meet izzah n while waiting to surprise ianoski. as usual, plenty of laughs and dissing hmph we be bitchin'. so at pasir ris, we waited since 8 ohmygod semangatz. so remember ian using his friend's hp on sunday to call me during SIT test? hehe ya so i msged his friend (didnt know his name then) and he was my partner in crime. found out later his name was hafiz hurhur i was msging him and i didnt know his name -.- so the sea of green men came and as usual, i was all 'ianoooooskiiiiiiiiii', and then i saw this familiar face, so i smiled, then he smiled. theeeeeen i realised, it's yanni grinning from ear to ear. operation surprise yanni, successful :) initial plan was to have dinner but both pokai keke1 actually we just didnt have cash in hand so we decided to save it for amazing day number two. ian sent me home hehehehehe.

tuesday saw me a very very happy girl. ian fetched me for breakfast at bedok corner for some yummy nasi lemak, which both of us didnt finish omg ian is so thin. went for ccom and straaaaaaaight to kallang because neither of us wanted to go jauhjauh. i knew how badly he wanted to watch jennifer's body so i gave in and this ian kept apologizing. soooo dunno :) the movie is okaaay lah and i still wanna watch love happeeeens. while waiting for the movie, we had cheese + fries, and i am so proud of ianoski for chewing with his mouth closed hehehe! and for not mixing the sauces!! so so happy. laughed alot as usual. aft the movie, i had horrible cramps :( ian's such a gentleman, bought plain water and food for me and even wanted to massage me. but massage + cramps = bad combo sweetie but youre so sweet! and he hugged me sooooooo tightly, the cramps almost instantly vanished. but came back 5 mins later still haizz. went to ecp for some good catching up. planned to stay out very much later since.. when was the last time we went out on a weekday anyways kan?! BUT by 10pm, both of us were pancet and ian couldnt stop yawning. actually i also couldnt stop yawning, taknak admit. amazing amazing day. on the way home on the expressway, ian rode at 60 and just saaaaang ns songs like shiok sendiri like that. couldnt help but laugh at my baby and tweet. suggested dinner/supper but we were so damn tired alrdy :( reached home, bathed, and was completely knocked out till ian called and i was like 'huh hello huh hello' otp. sorry :\

woke up today and realised he's booking in today :( realised i didnt have enough of him over the two days. realised this might be the last time i'll see him for breakfast on a weekday in a long time again. and i just need to see him. so so badly :( so during mnmnnsms i was just keeping my spirits high, just so excited to see him :) straight away went to joo chiat, where ianoski was waiting for me in a singlet and a pair of shorts. and ohmygoodness i could srsly see sooo much difference. he lost sooooo much weight! his legs are like this | | no kidding. ian lost weight :( maybe i shld lose more weight too hehex @lanasylver. but his arms are bigger and he has abs oohlala. so we went to pasir ris and had yoguuuuuuurt. so cheap some more! 30cents per 100gram! i like i like. ianoski likes also. couldnt stop smiling and laughing over the 2 days together :) sent him off to the place where the sea of green men were. still smiling and laughing till his bus went off.

so then i went off to tampines to get a beansprout pillow for shashad because kakak said he cant sleep well. poor baby :( special from his auntie charlie and uncle ianoski. yes, nicknamed approved by his mummy hurhur.

i love you suffian. i cannot wait to meet you on *friday*. or saturday. whichever keke1.

and to ijal pekjal, sorry i couldnt be there for the shooting :( saw vivo's pics on fb, and i'm glad you guys had fun anyways :)

and to this iraaaaaaaaaaah, JUMPA SOOOOOOON! <3